MOTHERS DAY 2014

i wanted to express my thnks to you, i know its silly, you know i love almost everything you do with me, but i felt, as you gain more momentum towards manhood, id let you know the small gestures you do make a difference to me.

celebrating today was one of them.

started off with you coming to church..i thank you for that.
i know you prolly look at me as either a hypocrite or an overly religious person..
a hypocrite isnt always aware of what they do thats  done one way said another, and they are sinners too, just like me, i just own my faults, and sins and make no excuses, most everyone else does..

i want you to know you coming to church is always a good thing to me.
it warms my heart, because i want to make sure you have a sense of God in your life, if ONLY that..its the start of a bigger foundation later.
maybe with enough dedication, you can find out for yourself that the church is real, and holds the truth in it.

i cant give that to you. you have too seek that on your own.
dont sink, dont give up, fight and find out, for yourself if its real and truth, or false and a lie.
if i can give you ANYTHING in this world..its that you HAVE to rely on FAITH to make it through some of the most difficult times your going to ever have to face in your life.

if you have the surity that God DOES exist, it makes it allot easier to walk through those rough and hard places.
its not going to be easy.
and you WILL doubt. i can promise you that.
thats when FAITH kicks in.
faith: the beliefe in something you cant see.

i believed at somepoint in my life id have a child, i knew that..it wasnt coincidence that you happened when you did, your a bonified blessing to me. i can not and will not deny that as what i know it to be.
i have NEVER deserved you, you have deserved far better than me, but i have always tied to do my best, holding onto the promise, my faith would be enough.
and i can say, because i believe in God, and hesus and the Church, it has.

so, my message to you today is..take the time to seek the truth, and really dig into it, like you dig into and learn about anything and everything else. subject may be boring...but its so worth it to understand how it can impact and make your life better.

into todays events.
thanks for sharing today with me, wouldnt have been without you...:)

we went out to eat at a chinese restaraunt in CHOCKTAW, oklahoma, one of the fav places for you and craig.

and we had a buffet dinner, like we always have, and i got to open gifts craig and i had scouted out the day before and got, pickings were very slim for what i could get, but i did get things and i like tham all.

a yellow water bottle, i can use when i cut ppls hair.
a reversible yellow towel.
a big mug i can drink out of (thats kinda yellow, more green, but i liked it)
and some choclates.

i like to take a pic of our fortunes when we go out to eat asian, and these were ours, in order of  Craig, Myself and then you (at the bottom)

yours says: you will bring sunshine into someones life. :)

everyday, daniel, everyday i am brightened by your light.
i love you, and i thank you so very much for allowing ME to be YOUR mother. to me thats the best gift i could ever have had, ever.

you make all the pain and struggle i have ever had to go through emotionally, mentally, and physically, so worth it all...id do it again, every bit, to be right where i am right now at this very moment i am in your life.
id trade NOTHING! because its been a wonderful experience to have you share my life.

i love you so very much, my words cant eeven come up with the words to say it the right way, its an emotion..to deep to cover in our feble langauge. its spoken from the inners of the depth of my heart.

i love you, never ever forget that.!